You don’t know what you want?
Don’t know how to get what you want?
No worries, I got an answer..
Finding what you want feels something like finding a needle in a haystack, or as I see it find a diamond in a haystack. If you’re not focused, feeling bad, feeling frustrated and worry all the time it would be exactly like that.
But, if you fully in sync with your true self, focus on what feels good to you, trusting the universe to hear you even when you ain’t sometimes, it can be so easy!
You would see it as a shiny diamond on top of the pile. More than that, you would find new stuff that feels really good to you without ever thinking about it before. I felt a little lost in the past few weeks. And that’s an understatement.
I had to get a new apartment, that I actually like and most importantly, affordable. See how I can pay for my car for the following month. And on top of that find a different job, that I had no idea which I want to cause all I wanna do is write and work on my shit you know.
I’ve made some decisions this past month that I already regretted. And It wasn’t easy for me to focus again.
At that point, I made a decision about my current apartment, that I got a few days ago. It was the wrong one. That’s no surprise, well you know the drill, when you’re not focused and feeling uncomfortable with your moves in life, you can not attract different than that.
But that experience got me right back to me. I knew on the first night it’s not what I want, and normally it takes me so long to act on something that’s not comfortable for me because I always think about the other person as well. Not this time. I’ve realized I gotta put myself first, respectfully always, but if I won’t stand up for myself nobody will.
Two days later I told the owner I don’t wanna stay, she said I gotta stay till the end of the month, so I told my self whatever, I’ll get my shit together till the end of the month and I’m good. Honestly, after that I’ve started to feel much better at this apartment, I guess it’s because I felt more connected to myself and I felt like I actually have my back for the first time in a while. On that day things already started to happen. Everything just felt way more relaxing and possible.
This situation was at the beginning of this month (Nov). Since that day so much had happened that you don’t even know. I got some great job opportunities that I wasn’t even thinking about. I had so many options for apartments, haven’t found what I really want but we’ll get there. So many other stuff happened as well but that’s for another day;).
My point is, the moment I chose myself, I chose to be my own guard, the universe had my back and did the rest. I realized that when I put my trust in him things always work out. We really Do Not need to know always what we want exactly, or how to get what we want. We just need to find that courage to ask for more from the universe and trust without letting any situation affect us badly. That’s where the universe feels me and start to show me all those beautiful diamonds I wasn’t even considered before.
Needless to say, trust yourself guys! Love yourself and know your worth. When you do that trust me the universe will be there with you. He’s just waiting for you to know your worth, Cause he already knows what you want.
God damn it! I love my life!
P.S.
I’d love to hear from you guys about something similar that happened to you. When you trusted and valued yourself for more and the universe just brought it to you.
